Food & Exercise Journal – August 26-Sept 1 – Lazy Days, Weight Check in, Life changes, School and more!

Hello everyone! Happy back to school day if you or your kidlets are heading back today!

Well this past week has been kind of a lazy one for me. For one reason or another (excuses such as…having my period, unpacking from our trip, family events) I seemed to have taken a bit of a break from my daily exercise and so really must get back into the swing of things! I am acknowledging that I have made excuses for myself feeling lazy.

Monday August 26th

Still in Port Elgin on holidays, loving the outdoors and slowing down a bit. Enjoying some good food along the way.

Breakfast: Udis gluten free toasted cinnamon raisin bagel with a bit of earth balance butter.

Snack: left over baked potato and veggies with hummus

Lunch: Veggie roll sushi with wasabi and pickled ginger

Dinner: My dad treated us to pizza. Of course I got the spicy pineapple (daiya cheese and yves meat free ham) from New Orleans Pizza. So good!

Tuesday August 27th

Back to reality – back home today!

We wanted to visit the Keady market today but it was raining so decided against it. Instead we took a drive by the lake – got breakfast (not pictured) and just sat and enjoyed the gloomy scenery.

Breakfast: Tim Hortons Plant based sausage, lettuce and tomato biscuit with hash brown and coffee. I ordered my coffee black and used some soy creamer when I got back.

Lunch: Before heading home I ate this little microwave meal I picked up a few days earlier (just to have something on hand that was convenient) This is the Gardein orange beefless bowl. It was spicy and quite delicious!

For the road: Stopped at The Pea Pod for one last hurrah – got their special weekly drink which happened to be a dairy free golden milk with an extra shot of espresso (yum) and we snacked on some fresh local cherry tomato.

Dinner: Sol original griller burger with all the fixins, ODough gluten free hamburger bun, cob of corn

Exercise: 20 minute walk with husband and Lola

Wednesday August 28th

Breakfast: Coffee with soy creamer and Udis plain bagel toasted with earth balance

Lunch: Veggie Sandwich

Snack: Lots of yummy melons we picked up while on holiday all grown locally

Dinner: Potato, veggie and chickpea curry

Thursday August 29th

Breakfast: Coffee with soy creamer, melon and blueberries

Snack: Unsweetened coconut yogurt with blueberries, chia seed and flaxseed

Lunch: Left over veggie curry

Dinner: Dr Pragers veggie burger with all the fixins on an O Dough

Friday August 30th

Breakfast: Udis gluten free bagel toasted with earth balance

Lunch: mixed green salad with chopped veggies and black beans

Snack: bowl of mixed melons

Dinner: Brown rice spaghetti cooked with peppers, zucchini, onions, garlic, green chillis and peanut sauce

It doesn’t look appealing but it was yummy!

Saturday August 31

Breakfast: Found a new style of the Odough product which I have been loving this summer. At Goodness me we found the 100 calorie ODough bagel thins which also happen to be gluten free vegan and no sugar added. They actually are pretty dang tasty. This morning I had one of the bagel thins with Hellmans vegan mayo and some of our garden tomato

Lunch: Had a big salad with regular green lettuce, spinach, red peppers, cucumber and mother raw dressing. I also had a bowl of left over peanut noddles cold.

Snack: Mango

Dinner: Morning star farms black bean chipolte burger (no bun) with a baked potato topped with cooked spinach, broccoli, nutritional yeast and tofutti sour cream.

It was such a beautiful late Summer day today. Spent time by the pool and got some much needed vitamin D!

Preparing my mind AND kitchen for liver rescue 3.6.9!

Sunday September first

No pictures taken today!

We spent most of the day at my sister in laws house for a birthday celebration for my father in law. For our contribution we brought a vegan potato salad (made with hellmans vegan mayo) along with a beautiful 3 bean salad which consisted of mixed beans, garden cucumber, parsley, dill and italian dressing.

I had a large plate of cooked mushrooms (instead of choosing a burger) mixed garden salad, 3 bean salad, potato salad and a large slice of a tomato. Dessert for me was 3 small brownies that my mother in law made and some strawberries. All in all it was a nice Sunday!

Weight Check In

Haven’t done this for awhile! It was kind of nice ignoring the scale for awhile and I guess it worked!

SW: 265 September 2018

SW at Day one of dietary changes journey 9 weeks ago: 250

CW: 234

So that’s 2 more pounds down since my last check in around 3 weeks ago 🙂

I don’t always want to focus JUST on weight loss. Truth is anything could happen today or tomorrow that might set me back in terms of weight loss. But the important thing is im changing the way I look at food and how I relate to it and life. I’m learning and doing what’s best for my body and that’s what it most important.

While any amount of weight loss is extremely difficult and we should applaud people for doing it for the right reasons (health) we should also applaud the growth and everything that goes along with that.

Here’s what has been changing for me along the way:

– mindset – acknowledging how I feel and not holding onto those feelings. This was a big obstacle for me. I worked on it. 
-living in the present with few worries
– food choices – improved. Choosing food that makes me feel good despite the opinions of others.
– looking forward to “go out and do” 
– new goals: registered in a holistic nutrition diploma program 
– able to walk longer 
– able to swim longer 
– sugar levels have decreased 
– digestion has improved 
– no more painful skin rash 
– greater knowledge of what’s going on inside my body as I got over my fear of blood testing 
– happier in hot and sunny weather. Before I would dread it because I sweat a lot 😂🤣

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Finally

My school books have arrived! EEEK

So looking forward to taking you all on this journey with me!

More to come <3

Self Sabotage

This topic is an important part of my journey – and a very important self realization for me that I included it as a sub topic in the “about me section”. Can you relate? Have you played a role in any of your suffering, weight gain, disease etc…? I know I have.

After a great deal of reflection, self analysis, shadow work and inner child work I have come to realize that my path has been rife with self sabotage up until just recently. I had EVERY excuse under the sun to not exercise, to not spend time outside, to not choose healthy, nutritious foods that actually agreed with my body and to simply take proper self care. I didn’t care to heal myself or my life. Even if someone handed me all of that on a silver platter, I bet you I could still come up with the reasons why that I could not and would not do that. I did not feel worthy of what might come along with making these integral changes in my life.

I have realized that I had everything I needed all along, the knowledge, the power, the tools within myself but deep deep down I was afraid. Afraid to take a chance, afraid to stand up against the status quo, afraid to say no to the typical S.A.D (standard north american diet) I had a deep routed fear of being seen by those around me and such a low level of self confidence from trauma that I have been through throughout my life that I could not get beyond. I played into the trauma that happened to me and let it affect me more than it should have. I was afraid to really LIVE and start my life. I was holding onto the past and the negative patterns and unable to break free.

This pattern of self sabotage became my own personal hell and identification. It was the never ending hamster wheel that I could not get off. Until one day I said no more. I will no longer accommodate the pattern of self sabotage that had become apart of me and I no longer will identify with that. I will no longer kill myself with food, negativity and nasty self talk. I love life, I love myself and I want to live! Like…really live. Disease free. I will no longer accept that I have to live with the disease that I created in my body by the choices of self sabotage that I once made. I have the power to say no and to change. We all do.

The thing is…i was never ready before now. Everyone will have to come to this point in their own time of acceptance and letting go and making the choice. And I’m just glad that my time is now.

Food & Exercise Journal – August 19-25, Holidays, Birthday and Girl talk

Hello everyone!

Hope you are all well. I have had a slow start “back to reality” after a wonderful holiday by the lake visiting my parents with Brent and Lola. Delicious food was consumed, sometimes yes, extra food was consumed! To save you some time yes I weighed in this Monday (it is now Thursday) and no…I did not lose not one pound however I did maintain, which makes me happy. Sometimes you have to go with the flow of life and it’s not always going to turn out as you wish.

Monday August 19

Breakfast: Gluten free toast with peanut butter and jam

Lunch: Salad with arugula, spinach, cooked mushrooms, black beans and pico de gallo

Snack: Protein shake with almond milk, ground flax, ice, cinnamon, and Sunwarrior protein powder

Snack: Homemade tea brew of nettle, yarrow and calendula

Dinner: Left over vegan cheddar broccoli Soup with garlic naan bread

Dessert: Watermelon

Exercise: 45 minutes of swimming laps

Healing herbs: Nettle, yarrow and calendula – very healing for females especially

August 20th (My birthday!)

Breakfast: Tim hortons Beyond Meat sausage and tomato biscuit a hash brown and orange juice (Brent treated me to birthday breakfast on his way to work which was very sweet of him)

Lunch: Mixed Veggies with hummus

Dinner: Brent made a lovely mixed veggie and potato stew

Dessert: Daiya Key lime cashew cheezecake

We were supposed to go out for dinner but the restaurant I really wanted to go to was shut on this day. Brent’s homemade veggie stew was just as good as any restaurant.

Exercise: 30 minutes of swimming laps

Wednesday August 21

Breakfast: Coffee with soy creamer, two natures path maple waffles with maple syrup and blueberries

I snacked on veggies throughout the day

Dinner: We tried to go to the restaurant – The Plant Diner – that I really wanted to go to. It serves 95 percent vegan food and 5 percent meat. This is a place vegetarians or people looking to eat mainly plant based can bring their carnivore friends! They have basically flipped the standard restaurant where it’s usually 95 percent meat based dishes and 5 percent vegetarian and vegan. Unfortunately it was SO packed that we could not get a table. I was greatly disappointed however the night turned around. We decided to eat at Montana’s which is one of Brent fave restaurants. It is mainly meat based but they have recently revised their menu and offer a few veggie options. I ordered the veggie burger (despite the fact that it had goat cheese and regular mayo on it) I enjoyed it anyway and didn’t let it bother me. I got french fries with it. I also enjoyed an adult bevvie – the “big mama” a spiked lemonade. Overall it was a fun Birthday meal. I’m not perfect. I am human. My food choices will never be perfect.

Thursday August 22

Breakfast: Coffee with soy cream, Udis gluten free cinnamon raisin bagel with earth balance butter and peanut butter

Lunch: Veggie sandwich using tomatos, pickles, olives, cucumbers and honey mustard

Dinner: I felt like a light dinner tonight. I had a Protein shake using Sunwarrior protein powder, frozen banana, cinnamon, flax, ice and cashew milk

Exercise: 45 minute walk and 45 minute swimming laps’

Getting that vitamin D and reading in – starting the Liver Rescue 3:6:9 in a few days!

Happy girl after a long walk

Friday August 23

Busy day packing and cleaning today!

Breakfast: Fruit bowl consisting of mango, blueberries and hulled hemp seeds and chia seeds

Lunch: Cucumber chopped with hummus and garlic naan

Dinner: On the road – New Orleans plant based spicy pineapple pizza (small) topped with dairy free mozza cheeze, yves “ham” red onion, pineapple and jalapenos. I dipped my crust in marinara sauce. This was absolutely delicious and TMI but…did NOT make me run to the toilet in pain with diarrhea. The last time I had REAL pizza was end of May. I spent two days in bed and had painful bowel movements, diarrhea, and stomach cramps. Regular cheese does not like my body.

Saturday August 24

So happy to wake up in Port Elgin! I love spending my days outside. I feel this connection with nature. It uplifts me, renews my spirit and just makes me feel amazing!

Breakfast: Coffee with soy cream, Udis gluten free cinnamon raisin bagel (brought this with us)

Lunch: Stopped at my fave place “The Pea pod” TO pick up lunch and dinner. For lunch I got the cheezy chickun taco which was delish.

Snack: Large peach – so juicy!

Dinner: Half of the burrito bowl from the Pea pod. Full of good stuff!

Exercise: Short walk with Brent and Lola

I put this in the fridge and saved it until dinner which is why that beautiful avocado has turned spotty! This has layers of rice, corn, cucumber, grilled peppers, onions, sweet potato, lime juice, cashew sour cream, chilles and more.

Sunday August 25

Breakfast: Fruit and yogurt bowl using silk coconut unsweetened yogurt, strawberries, blueberries, peaches, hemp seeds, chia seeds

Lunch: Left overs from my burrito bowl

Dinner: A Sol veggie burger on an O Dough vegan/gluten free and no sugar added hamburger bun with fresh green beans

Exercise: Short walk with husband and Lola

Enjoyed time at the beach today – was super windy and the waves were crashing but we both had child like fun jumping through the waves! The water has warmed up as well – it was maybe 74-75 degrees.

We also enjoyed a camp fire at night!

I didn’t lose any weight this week – however i enjoyed my food and my holidays. I also didn’t exercise as much or as long as I typically would have. Overall it was a nice holiday spent with my parents and husband and Lola of course! I feel a lot better than I have in ages. I attribute this to dietary changes, an increase in exercise, getting outside more and my emotions and mentality getting stronger. I look for the good in things and try not to always focus on the bad or negative. This has been a work in progress for me as I lived my life for a great many years always looking at the “bad” or negative and complaining about things that I could easily change.

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Now if you are a man reading this you might want to tune out…I’d like to talk a little bit about changes in my cycle. So I have been making changes to my eating habits since around June. I have been limiting animal products and oils as well. Despite best efforts sometimes the fat levels may be higher than I would have wanted them but it’s been a work in progress.

This month I noticed distinct cycle changes. My cycle was around 7 days late (which stressed me out of course that probably made everything worse) but when it came….cramps weren’t that bad and my flow was super light. This is very unusual for me. Most of my life I have suffered pretty heavy flow and horrific cramps. Could this be the dietary changes as well as the new supplement regime lightening everything up? I’m not sure, but if it is, it’s definitely a welcomed change.

Stay tuned..I have more posts to share with you all this week 🙂

Transitioning

Well, almost a week has passed since I heard those three words.

I’ve been making adjustments and getting my shit together where and when needed. Over the course of last week I started removing animal products, oils, processed foods and anything too sugary (chocolate bars, cake, candy etc).

I put together a simple document on excel to keep track of daily supplements (most from my naturopath and some my choice- and I will make a separate post about that soon), as well as my daily exercise. I wasn’t consistent the past few months with any kind of supplements and never really ever took any sort of vitamins in the past so this is a big help in keeping me on track and organized. Besides the food this has been one of the biggest adjustments for me.

I have been walking every day – some days 25-30 minutes some days 45 minutes and beyond. My doctor says to aim for 45-60 minutes so that is always the goal. I couldn’t even walk around the block last year so I do feel an improvement in this area. Hopefully with a little hard work, focus and consistency my stamina and strength continues to improve. I will also be adding some upper body workouts with small weights to the mix.

I have been eliminating animal products and oils as I try to follow a plant based, lower in fat, vegetarian/vegan diet. I have been increasing the greens, veggies, fruits, beans and seeds. As I’ve said before, and if you have followed my previous blogs…I have tried things like low carb, keto and even “everything in moderation” and unfortunately that hasn’t quite cut it for me. I have come along way from my binge eating days – this is true – but I still have a long road to travel down as far as weight loss and health is concerned. Plant based eating at least 90 percent of the time just makes the most sense to me from everything I have researched and studied. I need to fill my body with ALL the nutrients and hopefully bring down my sugar levels and inflammation in the body.

I have to get my thoughts and mindset straight and advocate for myself and my health. I just have to “do the things”…take the supplements, go for the walks, eat the big salads, make good food choices, get lots of outside time to improve Vitamin D levels, follow through when I say I’m gonna follow through, bring stress levels down and really practice mindfulness this Summer and beyond. I dub this Summer “The Summer of Healing”. I have a good feeling about this! Nothing snaps you back to reality like a doctor telling you that you have diabetes! Despite the binge eating days being behind me and making better food choices and exercising more it still doesn’t change the reality that I have diabetes and I’m still obese. I hate that word but in reality that is the correct term.

In the past I have went along with other peoples choices to be a good friend, a good wife, good company (food choices, sitting on the couch instead of going for that walk etc) putting my health at risk to make them happy or to be low maintenance as to not inconvenience those around me. I have probably been a bad influence myself at times to friends and family, falling pray to the cravings of junk food. It goes both ways.

For months I read all of the plant based books, followed the plant based bloggers, heard and watched their inspirational stories of healing and thought/wished that could be me. I wasted a lot of time when I could have put forth energy into my own journey. But I have to say good bye to that complacent and content to let life pass by Jocelyn. Good bye to the people pleaser. I will now be putting myself as a priority. My health is more important than the approval or judgement of those around me. If it bothers them that I’m making these life style changes then that’s none of my business.

Over the next 6 weeks or so I will be following a plant based, whole foods, low in fat (but not all fat) diet. As long as I make the goal to try to make good choices (fruits veggies, seeds, nuts, small amount of grains) each day and to avoid animal products, oils and processed foods then I can’t go wrong! At the end of the six weeks I will see how I feel and if i wish to continue!

I will be updating at the end of each of the 6 weeks with what I ate, how I’m feeling, sugar levels, detox symptoms, stress levels, body shots, weight loss (hopefully) and anything else that is going on in my crazy life! Overall this is the place where I will be intimately sharing my life style change and weight loss journey. I hope some of you will be able to follow along on this journey with me.

At one point I was sharing about how my somewhat high stress child hood and upbringing contributed a great deal to my current health issues and mindset that I am living with today. That might be somewhat still true but I refuse to let my past define me. I had yet to make this connection while I was writing about my turbulent past. The connection being that it’s now time to be the care taker I needed when I was little, in my teens and even throughout my 20s. It’s time to be my own cheerleader and be in my own corner day in and day out. It’s time to break the cycle and unhealthy patterns I fell into again and again and again. It starts and ends with me. Simple as that. I am responsible for my thoughts, actions, behaviours and daily choices – nobody else has any influence over that. Ultimately this is what will see me through.

“You Have Diabetes”

Well… yesterday June 19th 2019, I received a call later on in the afternoon from my doctors office wondering if I could come in that evening to discuss the results from my first blood test. The first blood test I have had in over 12 years.

I thought to myself “geeze, I was scheduled to come in, in a months time, I wonder what could be wrong??” I had several thoughts going through my mind….but I guess I was in complete denial because I really didn’t expect to hear these three words...”you have diabetes”

Lets rewind a bit.

For so long I thought I had autoimmune issues and I chalked my struggle with weight/health issues to previous thyroid issues. I know I had been diagnosed hypothyroid when I was younger but really had not been on top of or in the loop as far as what was going on inside my body for the past 10-12 years.

Who knows how long my sugar levels have been crazy out of control but it explains SO MUCH. It’s not like this couldn’t have been a possibility either. My dad has had type two diabetes for quite some time. I guess I was just in complete denial. So the doctor says “well the good news is, you are not autoimmune but your thyroid IS a bit sluggish due to extreme low Vitamin D and vitamin B12 levels and the bad news is you are diabetic”.

Now…let’s go back to the diabetes. Like I said, It shouldn’t be a complete shock. Why? Lets see…my dad has type two diabetes, my grandpa and several other family members also had it. Plus, my past with chronic binge eating really REALLY shitty processed foods for years and years, binging and restricting, yo-yo dieting and lack of exercise, high stress levels, chronic yeast infections, candida overgrowth, skin disturbances, PCOS and the list goes on plus well hey…I’m OBESE (so says my BMI) so theres that for connecting the dots. I guess I have just been in complete denial that this all really could be from unregulated sugar issues. And I could blame my past trauma and all the shit I have experienced but lets get one thing straight – I have created this right now in my adult life. I have been an adult for 15 years. I could have turned things around instead of blaming everything on my past….but I didn’t. I had not been taking proper care of myself for most of my adult life and the ownership is completely on me.

My fasting A1C was just over 10. She asked me if I wanted to see my family doctor about this issue to discuss medications OR with a glimmer of hope in her eye….”did I want to work with her for 3-6 months to turn these numbers around and hopefully avoid conventional medications completely?”. Well, me being the shape shifter/rebel/black sheep of the family definitely took the latter. She mentioned that she had worked with plenty of folks who had much higher numbers and that slowly but surely things got turned around for the better.

So…issues I am dealing with so says my blood and the lab: Diabetes, PCOS, Slightly hypothyroid, Vitamin D Deficient (extreme) Vitamin B12 Deficient, Sluggish GallBladder function, clogged up Liver and high inflammation throughout the body.

YIKES.

I knew it was bad, don’t get me wrong. You don’t create a blog called intuitively healing (kinda having that knowing that things have gone wacky in the body and following gut instincts to finally get things checked) without having anything wrong with you…. but THIS…this is bad. The doctor said we will try to bring my vitamin levels up over the Summer as that should help with my thyroid numbers. As it is right now I do not need thyroid medication (yet) So that was a relief to hear after the first diagnosis.

But now is not the time to dwell on the diagnosis or that word “diabetes”. End the dramatics, Jocelyn. It’s now time to put in the work. No more studying, researching, looking at different food plans or dreaming about future results or what could be if I really put in the time and effort. It’s time to just go balls to the wall and get shit done.

From here on out I will be following several plant based protocols (mixing and matching the ones that feel good ) for… at the bare minimum….July, August and September, when I will then get all levels re-tested by blood.

A few of the “protocols” (hate that word lol) books, and/or doctors I have been following and learning from include but not limited too;

Anthony Williams “The Medical Medium” who has a long list of amazing books including Liver Rescue and Life changing foods – he promotes a low fat, plant based lifestyle for restoring health.

Eat to Live by Dr Joel Fuhrman – who promotes a whole foods, plant based “nutrarian” lifestyle.

And

The Starch Solution by Dr John Mcdougall who promotes a plant based, whole foods lifestyle where your meals are built around starchy (but still whole food, plant based) foods.

These are my top three. They all have their own slight ways to tackle disease, diabetes and obesity but the commonalty is still there; following a low in fat, plant based, whole foods, lifestyle.

Food+Stress+Lifestyle choices got me into this mess and it will be those very things that get me OUT of this mess. I will NOT be following the traditional low carb high fat plan as I have tried that in the past and it just did NOT work for me. All signs are pointing to PLANTS for optimal healing.

I will be sharing lots of updates along the way. Thanks for joining me on this crazy journey we call life.