Body Image and Reaching Self Acceptance – What it looked like for me.

Most of this was written in 2017. I have made some changes and updated the end of it 🙂 Enjoy!

Today, On world kindness day, I’d like to talk a little bit about body image and self acceptance. Yes, it’s very important to be kind to one another but most importantly we be kind to ourselves. It was only when I reached this point and viewing myself in the highest light possible that I could start releasing the physical weight.

What does it mean to really accept oneself? How do we get to this place of true self acceptance and happiness – no matter what our outer shell looks like. Did you know that your negative self talk can actually affect other people and bring them down? Coming from someone who has struggled with disordered eating and disordered thought processes for many, many years….I hope you know that you can trust what I’m about to tell you!

This has been a true lifelong struggle of mine. Despite reaching my highest weight of 265 in 2017 I still felt OK (albeit a little too comfortable in that position).

I accepted myself despite the facts. I had hated myself for so many years before that and I was weary and tired. It always felt like a sense of dread and self loathing in my own skin. For many years – I couldn’t even look at myself in a mirror.  I used to be so down on myself and negative…it really affected my life and relationships. I wasted SO MANY YEARS!!! I wouldn’t buy myself new outfits – I’d wear the same thing day after day. I found joy in nothing. I was stuck in shitty friendships where I let people take advantage of me and just put up with the SHIT. I would stay in bed ALOT and not leave the house. I had developed a pretty nasty binge eating disorder.

  I am writing this so that you don’t do the same. It’s imperative that we change our thoughts – it will change our life. And nothing can change…I repeat NOTHING – if you do not change the way you think. It takes time. For me it took years. For me over 25 years. And sometimes the thoughts revert back…but I don’t let them float around in my head for very long. I observe them, see what they might mean and then let them go.

Something has slowly shifted in my thought process over the past two years. It actually really bothers me now when I hear in person or read online negative self talk (i.e girls/guys talking about “fat” they are or other people fat shaming people”) It makes me sad and brings me back to all those years I wasted being caught up in the negative self talk and chaotic thought process that goes along with that. All that time I wasted in suffering mode rather than making conscious change to do something positive about it.

Lets get real…Ok – I have FAT still (a lot of it) I have cellulite, I have stretch marks – these are all just facts for the moment. They are fluid facts…they will change and have started to change since last year (sometimes completely) and improve over time. These current facts do not describe me fully as a human being. I have learned to not let it affect me. I find joy in shopping now even if it’s at plus sized stores (who cares?) I find clothing that fits my body how it is now. I thought my plus size wedding dress fit me perfectly and I wore the hell out of it! I did not starve myself just because my wedding day was down the road. Just because I accept myself now fully for what I am, does not mean I want to stay here nor does it mean that I am a stagnant rock, not wanting to improve my outer shell. No…I do want to  continually make improvements – but for my own sanity and for the sanity of those around me I had to switch my thought process – I had to shed the negativity which filled me with chaos and depression for many years. I don’t allow these things to stress me out anymore and dictate how my days will be. I could not function that way. I had to let it go.

And it was a struggle…and I got it wrong…and I had to work HARD at it. And it’s still a struggle and it’s something I’m going to have to continue to work on. But it was possible. Little by little I started feeling better. I got happier, I felt better in the morning, I found joy in that plus size outfit I was rocking…I found joy in putting on some makeup, made positive life changes, dropped negative relationships and surrounded myself with positive people. Along with that I tried my best to drop the negative self talk. Things moved fast for me. I met the most amazing man who supported and uplifted me, some negative relationships had to fall away, I left a job where I was forced to continually work with a negative co-worker, got engaged, moved in with my man, got married.  I found new passions and talents. And I attribute all of these amazing positive life changes to deciding to accept myself fully no matter what that looked like for me from day to day. I know you can do this too and if you are struggling, feel free to drop me a line – I can lend an ear and see if I can shed some light and perhaps some hope. 

It is now November of 2019. Since writing this (above) in 2017 I have lost over 40 pounds, I am able to walk long distances with my dog every day, my BMI has dropped by over 8 points, I have changed the way I eat and my relationship with food has improved. I have enrolled in a holistic nutrition program in the hopes of helping others some day.

You can rewire yourself and shift your reality! You don’t need to be in the same place this time, next year.

Be kind to yourself today and every day <3

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Medical Medium Recipe Challenge – October 31- Sweet Potato Soup

Today was the last day of my October Medical Medium Recipe Challenge!!! It was a cool, rainy, Halloween day and was welcomed. 31 days, 31 recipes 💖 Sweet potato soup today.

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Such a simple. nourishing meal! I think most of MM recipes are like this 🙂

Ingredients: Sweet potato, onion, garlic, ginger

Sweet potato: According to medical medium ” Sweet potato is one of the most healing vegetables we have available to us. They help to lower blood pressure and reduce stress. They are one of the best anti-cancer foods, and can particularly help to prevent breast, colon, lung, skin, and oral cancers.

Sweet potatoes are known for being easy to digest and are very good for ulcers, inflamed colons, digestive disorders, and constipation.

And to top it all off, they taste delicious! Especially in this quick and easy healing recipe. It’s perfect for dinner, and pairs wonderfully with a big fresh salad of leafy greens, juicy bell pepper, tomato, cucumber and avocado with a squeeze of orange juice.”

Onion: Onions have an amazing array of medicinal benefits and are high in vitamin C, folate, biotin, chromium, and calcium. Onions are the richest food source of quercitin which is a potent antioxidant that has been shown to lower cholesterol, blood pressure, and triglycerides as well as help to prevent blood clots, asthma, sinus infections, bronchitis, atherosclerosis, and diabetes. They also contain powerful anti-cancer properties which have been found to help slow and reverse tumor growth within the body. 

Onions are particularly beneficial for stomach, colon, prostate, breast, lung, bladder, and ovarian cancer. They contain valuable sulfur compounds that are known to significantly strengthen the immune system, brain, and nervous system. These sulfur compounds also act as a heavy metal detoxifier and can help to safely remove mercury, cadmium, arsenic, and lead from the body. Onions can help to treat colds, coughs, bacterial infections, angina, and bronchial spasms. 

They can also help to stabilize blood sugar levels and provide relief to the liver when processing glucose and insulin. Onions have powerful antibacterial properties and have been shown to be able to destroy many disease causing pathogens such as E.coli and salmonella. They also act as a natural diuretic and help reduce bloating, water retention, and edema. 

Onions can help purify the digestive tract and help to stop putrefactive and fermentation processes in the gastrointentinal tract. They are also known to help regrow hair as well as add volume and shine. Onions that are eaten raw provide the most nutritional benefits and are a delicious addition to salads, sandwiches, and wraps. Onions are also excellent steamed and added to soups and stews. 

Garlic: Has been used medicinally since ancient times. Garlic is antiviral, antibacterial, anti fungal, anti parasitic and rich in the phytochemical allicin, a sulfur compound that prevents disease.

Ginger: According to Medical Medium ” Ginger’s antispasmodic properties come from its more than 60 trace minerals, well over 30 amino acids (many of them undiscovered), and more than 500 enzymes and coenzymes all working together to calm reactivity. And as an antiviral, antibacterial, and anti-parasitic, ginger deserves all the accolades it gets for promoting a healthy immune system. Ginger is also ideal for stress assistance, DNA reconstruction, enhancement of your body’s production of B12, and so much more. It will be 100 years before research uncovers how much ginger truly holds. “

This was a lovely meal on a cool Autumn evening. 10 out of 10 for simplicity and flavor. My husband enjoyed it as well.

That’s a wrap for my October Medical Medium recipe challenge but this won’t be the last time you hear me mention MM. Hope you all enjoyed!

Medical Medium Recipe Challenge – October 30 – Adrenal Snacks, Dates+Apples

Day 30 of my Medical Medium Recipe Challenge was a simple one. Ok so..this isn’t really a “recipe” because it’s just separate ingredients on the plate/bowl lol 🤣 but it’s been an integral part of my daily “diet” routine since June. Almost every day I have some form of this as a snack…apples with dates. Sometimes I will add in chopped celery and almond butter as well if I’m feeling sassy lol Dates have become a staple part of our grocery list. They are great on their own, in cashew creamy sauces and to sweeten smoothies or shakes naturally.

It’s critical for your adrenals/liver and balancing blood sugar to graze on healthy snacks such as this throughout the day.

Read more about the importance of adrenal health and snacks here.

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Ingredients: Dates and apples

Dates:  Dates are an ideal food for improved energy and brain function. They are a good source of vitamin A & B-complex and they are rich in minerals such as iron, calcium, manganese, copper, and potassium. Dates are known to help build bone and muscle strength and have been used for thousands of years by athletes to improve physical endurance, agility, and stamina.

Apples: Sweet, delicious, so many varieties and full of immune boosting and disease preventing properties. According to Anthony Williams ” Apples are also an amazing detoxifier and contain both malic and tartaric acids that help remove impurities from the liver and gallbladder”.

Simple, sweet, nourishing and beneficial to our adrenals and liver health – 10 out 10 for me! Try an adrenal snack today, you won’t be sorry.